Beliefs

Historical background:

In the very early phase of the civilization of human being, people were doing practices to stay in a big cluster. So, it was necessary to bind and control the people in the new building society. On the mean time, some ‘wise’ persons made the assumptions about creation of the world and human beings after their careful observation, analysis and understanding. They made some hypotheses about the evolution of the world and these hypotheses were accepted in these societies. When these hypotheses were passed from generations to generations, they became strong ‘beliefs’ of the contemporary societies. There was no testification and no question of true or false hence these hypotheses were blindly accepted. But with the more development of societal structure and more practice of civilization, people started asking questions about these hypotheses and started thinking critically. They started seeking for reasons, facts and evidences.

Later on, when some of the people falsified some of these hypotheses with factual and logical evidence (most likely universal theory), a period of conflict created in between new version of believers and old version of believers. Actually, it was a ‘transition period’, when people’s beliefs were divided into two categories.

These believers, who continued their personal beliefs on the base of their ethical emotion and ‘acceptance nature’ what their pioneers told to them, became faith-based believers. On the contrary, other believers, who denied the conventional beliefs due to new emerged logical and factual hypotheses, became fact-based believers.

Now, I am trying to deal with each of these ‘beliefs’ separately.

Faith-based beliefs:

As I said earlier, a belief, that comes from heart, feelings and emotion is faith-based belief. When we do something, we keep faith on ourselves assuming that we become successful. Although it is not necessarily guarantee to become successful in all time. If we saw a new object in our life for the first time, we make some assumptions about that object and interpret on the base of the assumptions we made. Again, it is not compulsory that these interpretations become true. More precisely speaking, there is only half-half chance for being true/false.

Keeping faith on God is a kind of faith-based belief. Faith covers a wide area then ‘faith on God’. In our day to day life, we keep faith in many things. We keep faith in our relationships, in our employers/employees, politicians, neighbours, friends and so on. All of these are faith-based beliefs. When our emotional feeling tells us something/someone is right, we start believing. We make a certain assumptions about these objects and interpret on the base of the assumptions. We go for dating with our partners making assumption that she/he is not cheating. We vote our political leaders making assumptions that they will do well for the welfare of the society. It is not necessary that our partner wouldn’t cheat us or our political leaders wouldn’t be corrupted. We believed them because our feelings told us, ‘they are right! Just do it! Just believe it! And just keep a faith!’

Is everyone in the world faith-based believer?

Certainly, everyone is having faith-based beliefs; difference is only on degree and level of ‘faith’ with personal circumstances. The factors affecting faith-based beliefs are particular object/level of priority and depth of emotional feelings.

Particular object/level of priority:

How does a person interpret an object depends on his/her past experiences, existing level of knowledge and his/her own environment/surroundings. For example, if someone is a scientist, who believes only in empirical evidence, wouldn’t believe in existence of God. On the contrary, he/she might fall in love with one unknown net lover. Here, he/she got a faith on love relation but not in existence of God. Same, on the other side, one person who is priest believes in existence of God but may not believe in relationship through net.

Depth of emotional feelings:

How sensitive is he/she makes a difference in perspective of individuals. If there is more degree of emotion, there will be more influence believing on faith and no matter what they believe, they believe very strongly. It becomes almost impossible or very hard to change a person’s beliefs, if he/she is very emotional and sensitive by nature.

Types of faith-based beliefs:

Universal faith-based beliefs:

Universal faith-based beliefs are assumptions of individuals which cannot be falsified/proved by facts. So, universal faith-based beliefs are unknown from the point of true of false.

In other words, if existence of an object is neither proved nor disproved, it becomes universal faith, for example, existence of a ‘God’. No one can prove or disprove existence of God. It is beyond the fact or logical reason. So, it can neither prove nor falsify. So, if someone chooses to believe in God or not believe in God, it becomes universal faith for that person.

Another example would be relationship with our beloved one. We believe them and never try to get evidence or falsify. We believe them because we have a ‘faith’ that they will never play with our feelings and never betray us. Here, we don’t ask for any evidences or true/false. We just believe from our heart. So, sometimes, this particular belief is also known as ‘trust’. We spend our whole life with one stranger just believing he/she is decent to us.

Semi universal faith-based beliefs:

Beliefs that are based on some particular assumptions which can be partially falsified or disproved sooner or later are ‘semi universal’ faith-based beliefs.

Religions on the name of God are a good example of ‘semi universal’ type of faith-based beliefs. From example, all religion (Christianity, Hinduism, Muslim, Buddhism and so on)’s propose is to spread message of God in human being. But they think that their own God is more powerful and superior than other religions so they do fighting in the name of God with each other. Their belief is their particular God should be prayed. It is like all of them wants same grape but with different name. Their assumption is grape should be referred only by their symbolic name.

Relationship with our employee/employers is an example of semi universal faith-based beliefs. Asking references or referees with job hunters might be good example for partial belief.

Assumed hypothetical faith-based beliefs:

Assumed hypothetical faith-based beliefs are apparent truths that look like very reasonable and good from outside but when going to depth, no part of truth very negligent part of truth can be found.

There are thousands of examples about assumed hypothetical faith-based beliefs in our religions. For example, cast system in Hinduism is a good example. They divided people on the base of blood, not on the base of their job and it’s been followed from thousands of centuries. Basically, assumed hypothetical faith-based beliefs are only superstitions in our society. Beliefs are the key to divide people into groups and are responsible for social instability and conflict. With the tons and tons of presumptions, these beliefs have been making society as worse place to live.

In context of relationship, believing in internet is example of assumed hypothetical faith-based beliefs. For example, people believe in net assuming that everyone in the world is good and nice. But in reality, they would be only scammers and fraudulent people. Nigerian scammers of money are the good examples.

Fact-based beliefs:

Beliefs based on physical existence of facts are fact-based beliefs. Unlike faith based beliefs, fact-based beliefs are more specific and clear-cut in understanding.

Middle of Nowhere

Yesterday was completely new experience of my life. I came to that place crossing mile after mile, hundreds of kilometres after kilometres. In each sec and min with full of anxiety and new excitement, I was gazing far horizon. Thousands of acre of farmland and farm houses in the middle of this land were still giving evidences of human superiority on nature. Eyre Highway was straight away in front of me just like never ending ribbon till horizon. My heart was beating with the same speed of our car with a new wonders coming in my life. Rough rocky soils were getting wet with light shower. Hard and rough bushes were standing everywhere from ages. Tiny trees were giving evidences of extraordinary wonder of the world! Kim was keep telling me I had to wait further still to get really wonderful land in the world. Even I was already so excited and thinking oh! What might be more excitement more than this! I was already with full of surprises and really his secret was pumping my excitement more and more. Hundred and twenty kilometres per hour speed of car was coming as zip opening new wonder lands and was still unable to tear the never ending horizon.

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Yes, someone said very well, we always get rewards or punishment on what choices we make. I don’t know, what sort of rewards I was getting and whether my choices are for the better or worse! Artur made his own choice to return back in Poland and here I was going just opposite direction to him. I was trying to be more and more isolated. My curiosity about Ceduna was not less than knowing the fortune of own!

And yes, I made choices of my own pursuing my own way of life. I didn’t care about worthy or worse of the consequences. I had to decide some vital decisions and I took them. I left the job suddenly and was leaving my place. They were all unplanned. Really, I never thought, I would do some immediate decisions to bend completely my life in another way! I had other choices but I had to select one in very tiny span of time. Definitely, my faith of heart was predicting an unexpected isolated future!

I don’t know how come I thought about being isolated with everyone and everything! Yes really! How come this came in my mind pinching each min and sec! It was not feeling of doing suicide neither it was feeling of giving up! Suddenly heavy dark cloudy feelings of unexpected fortune was driving me crazy and shouting on my ear. Feelings of being isolated and going towards land of nowhere! How come it would be possible! Would be there any such land except Himalayas and Sahara Desert! Would I survive there! Thousands of questions were rounding again and again!

When I was coming from Sydney last week, I had thought to build one house above the wonder of white clouds in the sky in the dusk. The twilight was so wonderful in the sky where clouds were dwelling on their own path. I imagined just being one portion of them and kissing each other, blending myself on them and staying for forever there gaining first rays of dawn and gazing last ray of dusk and waiting in hope for next wonderful sunrise!

Someone says well, ‘if you wished from your heart, it comes true!’. Was that case? I don’t know! But apparently if my wish was going to be true! My inner core of heart was pushing me on my wish of ‘being isolated!’ and asking me to go far away from this selfish society.

I never saw God, so I don’t believe God logically but my faith says there is God who is our caretaker. May be God heard about my wish when I was on sky gazing breathtaking twilight! I don’t know! Neither I wanted to go in depth of this mental analysis on resolving problem whether what made me to get a typical new excitement in life. I just got it and so it might be my destiny!

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April 2009

Today, it was third last day in Adelaide Fresh. I woke up a bit early than usual. Actually, I couldn’t sleep for whole night. Just feeling sigh! I thought all parts of my life, forward and backward. In bed, was just laying down thinking about me and my time in Adelaide Fresh. I was thinking about what made me to leave the job suddenly. I knew, it will be very costly for me. But still I made decision and once I decided I wouldn’t go back. So, sometime, I think that I am really spontaneous decision maker who doesn’t care about the consequences that might come thru.

In my life, I did many spontaneous decision many times. When I was in high school, I left my science discipline only because of my ego. Yes, really, this my ego slowly grew up with passage of time and it became a very dangerous virus for me. When I was in Tribhuvan University, I liked a girl and when I couldn’t get her, I switched my school. When, I was teaching in Damauli and found that some of teachers don’t like me due to my non alcoholic nature, I nearly left the job.

When I remember my past, this virus is inevitably staying in every instance. I just don’t care about the outcome and do whatever my heart says good for me. yes, I always decide my good and bad from my heart not from my mind and she was right,

I still remember, she said to me, ‘Milan you think from heart and I think from mind!’, when, I propose her for the first time in my life, and said her, ‘Kala, I love you very much more than anything and anyone in the world! My heart will always beat for you till my final breath no matter wherever I live and you live in the world!’ That was final day with her and she was my first love, can anyone imagine? I was leaving her and purposing her at the same time which was my first love? So stupidness! After six month, she got married with someone and thereafter I never heard about her. And yea, I still remember her and feel sigh!

Her beauty was my chemistry but I left both. But why did I do such stupid spontaneous decisions? If I used to love chemistry, why didn’t I continue it and changed my faculty? If I loved her that much, why couldn’t i convince her that I was the right person for her?

Yes, now, fear comes on me. The FEAR! That ate me all the time. But what is actually the fear is for? And what is my fear?

Well, it is very hard to describe the nature of my FEAR and as usual, I go on same point. The parallel concept of life, death and life and it made me desperate to find questions about life and death in more and more depth.

When, I do study about life, I often used to find out some weird and strange outcomes. Surprisingly, I do research each day in everyone’s face. Cathy is pretty, but I compare her with one old lady who is wrinkled and with very weak body (example). Everyone thinks she is very hot and yes she is! But why can’t I see her as hot, Stunning and more….

I really swear no one does this kind of stupid analysis other than I do. I just eliminate the concept of time and put everyone in one straight line of birth and death and do study on them.

Actually, the root of problem is my view. When someone compares life with one fruit on a plant, isn’t it weird? Sometimes, I surprise on my dimensional perception. Thousands theories from big bang to String theory, I just can’t fit my dimensions. They say, three dimensions, and four dimensions, (including time), and 14-dimensions and so on. But if someone thinks from thousands of dimensions or infinite level of dimensions then what’s next? Oh! Yea! I have got infinite level of dimensions!! I can’t see one person as person and compare with every aspect and possibility of surroundings. He is rich! Again, if he is rich, who are Bill Gates and Warren Buffett? Are they taking money with them? Warren is richest person in the world. But is he in the space? No, he is also in the earth. He also needs two feets space in earth. Then who is rich?

He is landlord? Really! How big is his land, ask him showing atlas where his land lies?

I don’t know I am addicted to theological concept or not! But one thing is sure; I am pursuing new age and new definitions!

Gita, an ethical religious book of Hindu says, ‘why do you feel fear of loss if nothing belongs to you?’ yes, from many aspects, there’s bitter truth and we always ignore that. We start making assumptions and feel that, that is my language, my culture, and my religion.

Now misunderstanding starts in between infinite number of languages, cultures and religions. Again, I found it really funny when I went to depth level of these fundamental aspects of society. Language is just symbol conveying messages from one object to another subject. Culture is transformation of civilization of human being and religion is symbol of unification of human in one to make pursue final aspect of life or spirit.

Now, how come, questions of yours and mine came? You have adopted it but it does not mean that it is yours! You are only follower of the existing system. Most of people believe in supreme power of God, but the funny thing here is they even can’t speak son of God’s (Jesus) language. Let it put in this way, if someone can speak Hebrew, he is more powerful and almighty than another catholic who can’t speak?

Darwin was arguable correct in many aspects, particularly on ‘adaptation’ and ‘survival for the existence’. I also strongly believe in his perception/hypothesis of evolution theory. But when question comes about the humanity and concept of universal unity, I feel that we are ignoring inevitable aspects of nature and universe. We are trying to pursue very short term benefit dividing ourselves in yours and mine.

When I started working in Adelaide Fresh, I found same people I used to see back in home. Dave is just like my father, not much difference! He has been working in one place for years. He celebrates Christmas and New Year in same way like my father does back in home. Only difference is my father speaks Nepalese language and he speaks English. My father works for family and he also works for his family. Then, look at more closer, what’s the difference in between them? Nothing! Nothing at all! Both want their family happy all the time.

So, I couldn’t see any proper use of Darwin’s theory on the context of humanity and universal welfare. Oh sorry! Actually, Darwin gave only hypothesis, and that is not a theory otherwise it is proved!

There’s one theory in physics, theory of elasticity. If something is very rigid and someone tries to bend it, it breaks on the contrary if substance is flexible, it bends easily. Same theory applies to us in humanitarian aspect. How can we bend and go to knee depends on how flexible we are. If two sides are equally rigid

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This was written in March 2009